bluejade1414

So it's been a long time since I've updated my journal, besides actually having a working computer. Still been drawing over the years. Paper, painting, digital graphic designs... etc I've had too much happen in my life since I last posted. My mother died from her Lung cancer & End Stage Kidney Disease. Bless her strong soul. I miss her a lot, and learned so much from her. [ Quit fucking smoking cigarettes people! ( and yeah, smoking cigars, pot, and vaps, give you lung cancer too, besides addiction) , and fuck you Larks Cigs! And I'm still fkn pissed off with my Mom's father. If I ever had met him, I'd have a WONDERFUL convo with him.

I've been very scared a lot lately. I'm going to be having brain surgery for a 2nd time. Seizures getting uncontrollable an i'm sad, scared, nervous etc, that what if this time, i loose my ability to draw? Right now, i dunno what to do. I don't know if there's anyone to talk to. I'm worried about not being an artist anymore.